Hello Family! :)
it's always a little
weird to e-mail on a Tuesday... I feel like I'm breaking the rules!!! haha but
I'm not I have permission :) but I just feel weird! :) This week was ok.
It definitely had a lot of ups and downs. I'm doing great so don't worry about
me :) I hope you trust me when I say I'm doing great cuz some of the
things that happened this week weren't so great.. :) So on Monday last week
President and Sister Weaver came down and took the zone out to dinner at Red
Robin. For some reason unknown to me I felt like I was going to cry the entire
time :P Then as we were leaving Sister Hall came and put her arm around me to
ask how I was doing and I just started crying. So I went aside with President
and I told him a few small things I'm struggling with, and I just decided to
ask for a blessing. There's a lot of things that were on my mind and I just felt
like I needed more strength than my prayers could give me. But it really wasn't
for anything serious. I just wanted a blessing :) So we went to
the church and I got to talk with President for a little while about what's
going on and he talked a lot about Christ-like attributes. I know that the
trials and tribulations we go through help us to become more like the Savior
Jesus Christ. I am so forever grateful for that. In the blessing he said a lot
of things that gave me a lot of comfort. He told me I was a choice daughter of
Heavenly Father and that He was proud of me for the work I was doing. Which was
really good to hear, I know that I work hard, but sometimes I just want to do
more. As a missionary I worry constantly about whether I am doing my best and
if my heart is really in the work. I know it is and I am trying but it's still
really good to hear that God approves! haha :) He also told me a few times that
I was very strong and capable and that God would make me stronger and more
capable. He told me that He would help me bear the load of 2. And after the
blessing I just felt the enabling power of the Atonement enveloping me. I can't
even explain what it felt like, I honestly just felt 100% at peace and such a
great strength. But I was so happy afterward! I felt like it says in 2
Nephi 1:15 "I am encircled eternally in the arms of His love" and I
knew at that moment that everything was going to be ok. I just need to have
charity, and patience! :) The gospel is such a blessing!!! On Sunday C came to church! and
also some YSA people we're working with, Sabrina and Kurt. Kurt was invited by
a less active as he was walking down the road and he came. He so needs the
gospel. I am excited to teach him. But guess who didn't come to church? Gary. I
was so worried the whole time but I tried to not let it get to me. I put it in
the back of my mind. And then that night we went and visited him. Satan has
gotten such a great hold upon him and has made him think that he is "too
busy" to come to church and meet with us. He still reads the Book of
Mormon and such, he's not giving up on us...but I still just am So sad. We left
and went to the church and I sat down and just started sobbing. I absolutely
LOVE him so much and it's just so sad for me to see him in such a loss. When we
went over he looked sad and tired and the light in him was gone, he smelled
like smoke and it was so sad. He knows what God wants him to do and he knows
the church is true, he's just afraid to take a leap of faith. It's devastating.
I might be over reacting but I just love that man SO much! Afterward we went to
the Mcowens and they gave us brownies and Crystal was there and that was a big
comfort to me. Those guys are like my best friends! :) So that was comforting.
Then on Monday we hung out with the Sisters and I talked with Sister Julien and
she shared a lot of things that made me feel a lot better :) She shared this
scripture: D&C 123:17
17: Therefore,
dearly beloved brethren, let us cheerfully do all things that lie in our power;
and then may we stand still, with the utmost assurance, to see the salvation of
God, and for his arm to be revealed.
love always
Sister Wilkins :)
P.S.sorry if this is
scattered...I feel a little scattered today haha :) but I am happy and healthy
and love you!!! :)
D&C 24:
8 Be patient in afflictions, for thou shalt
have many; but endure them, for, lo, I am with thee, even unto the end of thy
days.
READ THIS!!!
Sisters! :)
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